Will you remember me?

posted on: November 7, 2017

There is a song by Sarah McLachlan whose lyrics came to mind today as I was studying.

I will remember you, will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
I’m so afraid to love you
But more afraid to lose
Clinging to a past that doesn’t let me choose
Once there was a darkness
Deep and endless night
You gave me everything you had, oh you gave me life
I will remember you, will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
I will remember you, will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
It is fascinating when you realize that the mind makes up only 2% of the human body yet controls so much of our lives. It is responsible for all body functions as well as personalities, memories and how we react to the world all around us. This link is the page I studied today if anyone is interested in reading the entirety. 
Memories are not stored in our brains like books on a shelf. They must be actively reconstructed from elements scattered throughout the various areas of the brain. Memories cannot be deliberately deleted at your will. If we experience any traumatic events, I have learned through studies that memories are imprinted even stronger in our minds due to emotional content. Young children, with their lack of verbal and conceptual systems, are more likely to have real eidetic (extraordinarily accurate) memories than adults.
I spent this time explaining all of this because I want to combat the ideas and myths and lies like:
  • Pornography affects no one but myself.
    This is a lie. I submit to you Readers, what you place in your mind and what you allow your thoughts to dwell on feeds an industry that is perpetually pumping out this garbage to a world whose appetites are getting darker and darker.
  • What I do in my alone time hurts no one else.

What you deem normal and ‘OK’ will affect the way you view relationships. Girls that are in this industry are demoralized and abused and mistreated. When the veil on that world can be torn down and viewers see how those girls are treated and manipulated and bribed, would viewers still find ‘pleasure’ if they knew about the tears and nightmares behind the scenes as well?

Covenant Eyes says the following:Today, we have a multi-billion dollar worldwide porn industry. Pornography production and distribution is done by businesses that run like Fortune 500 companies. Pornography isn’t just a haphazard collection of images that kids find through scrambled cable channels and websites run by perverts living in their parents’ basements. No. Pornography is a business, and a pretty successful one at that. About 20 large U.S. companies are responsible for at least 70% of the hundreds of millions of pornography images online.

And why is this a problem? Up until recently those more likely to be predisposed to sexual addiction were those who had subconscious motives to act out sexually, such as victims of physical or sexual abuse. Now the Internet has changed that statistic greatly. Thirty years ago, when Patrick Carnes studied the neurochemistry of sex addiction, he was testing in a pre-Internet world.


There are now people struggling with sexual compulsivity who never would have been if not for the Internet.”

We must take our heads out of the sand. Cavemen may have used cave walls as their pornographic canvas, but there are no limits to the canvas of the Internet.


We have to keep our children safe. Insist on Internet safety. What is in the mind cannot be deliberately deleted. Guard your mind. I could use so many scriptures that talk about the mind. WE know the mind is a battlefield. The Devil’s playground. Don’t give room for him to work. Don’t place images in your mind that you cannot get rid of. Will you cry over the memories you allowed yourself to experience? Guard your mind. Guard your eyes. Guard your heart. Guard your memories.

Victorious Living class 

posted on: March 20, 2017

My heart is so full today. Hope it’s okay to share….

When the church works together….

When Saints outreach and knock doors…

When Reapers encourage and do follow up

When van drivers have a burden to make sure pews are filled

When normal everyday Friendly people smile and pray with people in the altar …

Things like this happen when the church works together as 1 body….

 People show up to church and pray and feel the need to join classes to GrOw in church. 

This was notes from one of our students in the Victorious Living class. She shared with me what she had learned as she read thru the first chapter of Proverbs this week. 

Another student said after class last week that the lesson really opened her eyes. I wouldn’t take anything for those memories. The feeling was priceless. It’s what I’ve always wanted to do. Teach. Our lesson prior to service went hand in hand with the sermon today.

This is week 3 of class

   Week 1 we had 3 students 

 Week 2 we had 5

Week 3 We had 5 with an additional 3 absent. So 8….

Ruben goes to the Restoration Conference with Daddy

posted on: January 28, 2017

Craig travels extensively with his job but when he is home, he makes the most of his time with the children.

Last night was no exception. He and the young married couples’ men from church went together to LA for a men’s conference. Ruben tagged along.

I spotted their notepads on the breakfast bar this morning. I couldn’t help but take a picture. Ruben may not be quite ready to spell yet but he was there with his notepad as well.


I love it. Following in his dad’s footsteps.

Meet her some day

posted on: August 11, 2014

This is a poem I wrote. It needs brushing up and fixing but the first draft is below. I dedicate this to my daughter Caelyn. She is entering high school and decided she wants to become an author one day. Her dad told her to write. Writers write always… I don’t know if that dream will ever come true or not but if it interested her now….we say go for it. As long as she is pursuing a dream and not just being a bump on a log. Caelyn, we believe in you! You can do anything! You can be anybody! You can go anywhere! Go save the world!


Anyways I wrote stories since I was eight years old. My 5th grade teacher, Ms. Poole used to let me write stories instead of do my classwork at school. She believed in me. She told me to dedicate my first book to her and still to this day she ask me about that book that I have never written yet….and at 30 that dream seems dead and gone. Sad…. I wish I had a book to dedicate to her. I wish I had something to show her that she didn’t believe in me for nothing but that I can be what she thought I could be……


You are gonna meet her on the street one day

She’s gonna be better than you

She’s gonna be worse off than you

She’s gonna be every decision you never made

She’s gonna be the failures you didn’t fall into

She’s gonna be the triumphant wins you never won

She’s gonna be the victory you never chased

She’s out there

But she’s not you

She is not you

School starts in 2 days here!

posted on: August 11, 2014

Eeeeek I am sooooooo excited! School starts in two days! This will be my first year at a local private school teaching the A beka curr. I am nervous about juggling everything. Life is going to get really busy soon.

School*piano lessons*bible quiz practice*sign language practice*church*youth service* and that doesn’t begin to describe house work and meals and that fairy tale dream of a night out with my husband NOT buying groceries! So say a prayer for all the moms out there who are about to begin juggling a heavier schedule…me included. I have one in Pre-school, elementary and one starting high school! Wow……….


I found an article online that I may use in the future. I don’t have time now but it is an interesting thought….create food that last months and only cook once a month or so…. go check it out. http://www.aturtleslifeforme.com/2011/06/freezer-meals-on-cheap.html